-image-Don’t Try and Deny It

November 30, 2010 | "project!",Depression: It Sucks!

I really wanted to win this in one of the many crafty blog giveaways. I didn’t win one, which is not a big surprise considering the thousands of entries on each website that featured a giveaway.

I just want it, and in the Land Before Kids that included two incomes, I would have bought one yesterday without batting an eyelash.

There’s no way (trust me, I’ve tried) that I can justify spending $200 on this, especially after I spent that amount on an awesomely unflattering light visor (seriously? unfortunately.) so if you’re flooded with cash and feeling philanthropic (perhaps it’s considered charity?), please complete this order and ship to me at:

Mrs. Squirrel
Totally Wants the Silhouette SD, Apt. #RIGHT NOW SO WANTYWANT
WantWantWant, State of Greed
199.99

UPDATE: Today was my FIRST day wearing the bright light head thingy that helps relieve the suckitude that is seasonal affective disorder. I’ll definitely write about the efficacy of the product — although, depression and SAD are both beyotches that affect people in different ways, depending on their body chemistry, life situation, ability to handle stress, and a myriad of other factors which I will not list because I sound like I’m trying to a professional when I’m not! I said myriad! What next? Quagmire?

-image-I think I see some light? Maybe?

November 22, 2010 | bitterness,Depression: It Sucks!,Mockery

So, my hole of despair just got some light.

I talked to my psychiatrist a couple of weeks ago about Seasonal Affective Disorder. It was awesome. Mainly because he gave me this “is she shitting me?” look because I often do “shit” him because he’s really quite unflappable, and that just makes me want to flap the hell out of him or put him in a headlock and mess up his hair. I don’t know. Does anyone else feel that way sometimes about their medical providers?

So he gave me The Look because we hadn’t ever talked about it yet, but he truly believes in the suckitude of SAD and wrote up a little one-page sheet on SAD, so he assumed I was attempting to mock him. I don’t think I mock him. Oh wait. WELL, it’s mocking out of love, or at least respect and like.

ANYHOO, he highly recommend this thinga-ma-jig because it’s easy to use, portable and it works.* It’s expensive in the “not in the Target $1 bin” kind of way and will take some budgeting (avoiding McDonald’s and Dunkin Donuts would be a good start…on several levels), but honestly: $200 to reduce the despair, sadness and so easily irritated shitself I’ve been? Worth Every Penny. I called the company directly because the company doesn’t take Discover, which Google Checkout didn’t tell me (instead I just thought it didn’t work), and the salesman I talked to was helpful and hilarious (exactly what a depressed person needs).

I’ll let you know how it goes. Just ordering the device has improved my mood. And your supportive comments from yesterday and emails also helped. Thank you friends.

*yes, I realize it comes with a visor. Clearly, I’m desperate for help.

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November 21, 2010 | Depression: It Sucks!

I’m feeling like a Cymbalta commercial. I’m not posting much. I’m not smiling much. I’ve got to get out of this hole, cuz it sucks major donkey butt.

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November 12, 2010 | holidays,Jojo,The Nugget

I forgot to post an obligatory picture of the kids on Halloween. Doh.

Did I learn from years past — to wait on buying a costume until a few days before so Jojo can’t change his mind? Oh no. But then again, I loooove having lots of dress-up choices for the boys and their friends. So, in early October, Jojo decided to be Batman and Nugget would be Robin.

WELL, then everything changed, and after reconnecting with my high school best friend who shipped me her child’s outgrown Diego costume, Jojo decided to be Diego (or as Nugget calls him “Aa-go Go Aa-go”).

Nugget, however, was adamant about being Robin, although, let’s be honest — he’s never seen Robin or knows anything about him except that he IS him.

Closer to Halloween, Jojo definitively chose The Flash — a costume we bought for a buck off Yelling Boy a few summers back. YellingBoy, incidentally, doesn’t YELL so much anymore. Kind of miss it. Not really.

So he was The Flash and acted the part by bolting from our side as we arrived late at the town’s 1st annual Halloween parade (the kids just walk once around the town square — probably 1/6th of a mile), and lapped the other kids. He was, seriously, a flash. I was more playing the role of The Sloth, so I just watched his little skinny biscuits make their way around in all their red polyester glory. It was awesome.

Nugget was the dreamiest Robin of all time– so enthusiastic and thankful and sweet. He’s still talking about it and practices saying “trick or treat” and “tank you” and “Happy birthday!” Well, 2 out of 3 is good, right? Yes, a solid D…for ‘dorable!

So yeah, there was Halloween 2010 — our best yet! With each passing year, I find myself loving this “holiday” more and more! Even though I peed myself a little when scared by some neighbor boys hiding in the bushes (well-played, young men).

-image-The Only Way I Can Get Behind This Football Thing

November 9, 2010 | the homestead

I hate football. What a waste of time. My husband loves watching it, and I don’t like it on at all when the kids are awake because a lot of the commercials are violent or feature barely-dressed women. But then this happened:

Of course, this bliss lasted all of four minutes. Which, of course, is actually good because BOY I hate football, and I don’t want to to have to cover their eyes for every commercial break.

Also? Don’t look at how nasty our couch has become.